Posted by Dona on January 21, 2001, at 16:45:59
It is almost one year since my mom died. I just started a new job. I am a RN and have always worked in pediatrics. This new job has great benefits but it is evaluating nursing homes. I got a real shock seeing so many old people together. I am 54 and dread the thought of being old. My husband just lost his job so I have to make this job work. But I am feeling really depressed again (I take prozac 60mgm per day) Today I took 600 mg of trazadone that I had for sleep and just wanted to "konk out" for awhile. It did nothing and I am just in a state of wondering what the sense of life is. I don't think I am suicidal, but I would not mind just dieing and getting all this stress over.
I want to be positive again, but I don't know how to get out of this mood. I am trying my cognitive thinking but it is not working. And I don't see my psych until Feb. 7. How do I get my cheerful self back. All I want to do is sleep and just now wake up.
I have a wonderful husband (but he just lost his job after 23 years) and I feel so much pressure not to make this job a success. But life seems so futile right now. Anyway I can get out of this mood????
poster:Dona
thread:4106
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