Posted by Racer on November 14, 2000, at 16:50:32
In reply to Re: Brick walls » Racer, posted by Greg on November 14, 2000, at 16:16:04
> >I can't kick this laryngitis
Greg, we've told you a dozen times at least! The surgery was on your KNEE, which is part of your leg. You talk with your throat, which is where laryngitis strikes. Knee surgery, therefore, does NOT cause laryngitis!
(There, now it's all better, right? ;-))
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>I used to really get excited around Thanksgiving and Christmas. But it just doesn't mean that much to me anymore. I still love watching the kids open their presents and all, but I could care less about me.You just spoke for me, too. When my grandmother died, in 1983, I remember sitting in my aunt's living room, opening presents with the remains of my family, and wondering why? It's still like that for me, but it's gotten easier over the years. Now I'm there to be with my family, and to watch the expressions of love we really exchange -- whatever tangible symbol is inside the packaging. I think that's OK, too, though.
My aunt insists on big Christmases, and always asks for a list from all of us. I always specify very specific things, manufacturer, model number, stores that carry it, etc. That's because if I don't, or if I say, 'something that I don't have to dust or launder', or anything like that, she'll get me a few tons of STUFF. Just generic STUFF, to show me that she loves me. I know she loves me, and I love her. So I get specific, so that I don't get a lot of useless stuff.
This year, I think things might be better. My aunt has been in AA almost two years now, and she's getting a little better about expressing her emotions. And I've been calling her more often, now that she's sober, and sometimes calling just to say, "Hey, I love you." That may help, she may feel more secure now. We'll see...
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> Oh well, sorry to be such a downer.Hey! I started the downer, don't you dare apologize for it! I was depressed before you were, niener niener niener!
;-)
Holidays are hard, we all have so many memories tied up around them, and so many anniversaries we date by them. We spend them with family, the same people we're programmed to respond to in sick ways.
At least this year we all have this place to come to an detox. If I can't understand you, at least I'll pat your head or pretend to, or something.
Take care, Greg. January will be here soon enough.
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