Posted by dari on October 24, 2000, at 17:18:09
In reply to Re: I guess I'm not doing well - long » dari, posted by shar on October 24, 2000, at 10:21:11
Dear Shar:
Thank you for your kind words. You are right... I am functional. I think one of the biggest problems with me is that I saw this summer as being the vindication for me emotionally that I was really alright and all the @$#@$ labels that they gave me were wrong. It's hard to imagine when things are going well that things won't always go well. That despite a string of sunny days that eventually it WILL rain again. You are right on the money, too, about probably doing too much. Again, last year I was so incapacitated on meds (completely over medicated) that I couldn't do anything. So now, I feel subconsciously like I have no justification for not doing more, in that I'm not a zombie anymore. A lifetime of self berating and battering is tough to cure overnight, I am finding. You are also right on the money about my immune system being depressed. This is my second bout with pneumonia in less than a year and I'm convinced that the correlation between HUGE amounts of meds over 24 months and fairly frequent health problems is an obvious one.It's funny how intellectually it all makes sense to me, but it's so damn hard to not feel like a lazy slug.
Thank you thank you thank you for pointing out the obvious to me. Now if I could only put into practice this pristine advice and not feel so yucky.
fondly,
dari
ps I'm definitely getting my meds checked on Nov. 1st when I go to see my pdoc.
> Dari,
> My heart goes out to you, and I am so very glad you are hanging on. Keep on hanging on.
>
> You are doing a lot of stuff: volunteering, tennis, class for your master's, cooking, meeting other commitments, and recovering from pneumonia. I am wondering if you are doing too much at the moment. Recovery from an illness like pneumonia is a longish process, and I know as I got older (I'm not saying you are old!) I didn't recover as quickly as before. Your immune system takes a real hit. And that affects how we feel in many different ways.
>
> Maybe you need to take a couple of steps away from the chasm toward more rest, or more gentle exercise, more therapy, and a good med check. You are right now functional, a perfect time to see if you can prevent another visit from the Beast.
>
> Good luck! I will be thinking of you and wishing you oh so well.
> Shar
poster:dari
thread:1545
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20001011/msgs/1575.html