Posted by mark on October 13, 2000, at 11:05:56
In reply to Re: mark? Are you there? » mark, posted by Lisa Simpson on October 13, 2000, at 4:46:11
Hey Lisa,
Hahaha!! It took me a minute to get the 'spirt'
reference. No - not that kind!!! :-)I enjoyed it in the beginning. My close friends also grew up in alcoholic homes and I think that was how we learned to socialize. So most of my early drinking was done at bars with my friends. I don't really think I drank to cope with problems. Maybe I did and don't realize it yet. But at least I don't think I did.
Alcoholism seems to run on the male side of my family. Both my father and brother died from alcohol related illnesses. So I think I am genetically predisposed to addictive behavior. Specifically alcoholism. Logically I know that I have a choice whether to drink or not. Emotionally I feel like I didn't have a choice. Most of the time I didn't think about it - I just did it.
The last few years I didn't enjoy it. I felt guilty and scared when I was drinking. And afterwards I felt really bad because I had lost control - again. I didn't want to wind up like the rest of my family, but I was certainly heading down that road. It sounds cliche, but I got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. That's what finally got me to AA.
How about you? Do you know why you drink?
mark
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