Posted by Racer on September 27, 2000, at 15:54:25
In reply to An abusive therapist, posted by Diane J. on September 10, 2000, at 19:25:13
First off, congratulations on filing a complaint! Good for you, and good for all the others who won't be abused by this one again!
As for why you're scared of her, here's one more babble thought:
Therapists are funny figures in our lives, almost like mothers to infants. We make ourselves more vulnerable to them than to anyone else, and we have to put trust in them. We have to open ourselves so much it's scary. Then, to be betrayed by someone who's had access to the deepest caves of our souls, well, that's devastating. I don't know the details of what went on in this case, so I can't say what's really going on, but I'll guess that somewhere inside you're going through that guilt thing about 'maybe I'm so very bad that I deserved it/maybe she saw how really awful inside I am and that's why she did it/somehow I caused this/etc' For what it's worth, you're not nearly powerful enough to make a good person do something really, really bad. And you're not so terrible inside that someone would turn on you because of it.
Some people become therapists because they are so screwed up that they are drawn to a profession where they have absolute power over their clients. Most don't, and I've been to some really exceptional people over the years, but there are always those bad apples in the barrel. It's unfortunate that you got stuck with one, but you're obviously good enough and strong enough to draw the line and end the problem. Good for you, and let's hold cyber-hands as we try to internalize the rational outlook on your ex-therapist and my ex-job, eh?
Good luck to you. My heart really goes out to you, because it's as though you finally did something to help yourself, and then got slapped for doing it. Grrr! No wonder there are so many unhappy people in the world!
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