Posted by I need a hug on October 22, 2007, at 4:41:14
About a year ago, I received a letter informing me that my doctor(female) had left the agency where I(female) had been seeing her. I was devastated. She had been my doctor for about 8 years. I found out where she was about 7 months later. She said she would have told me but things happenned somewhat abruptly. I believe her because she told me ahead of time before when she changed positions. The seven months that I didn't see her were awful! The first month I couldn't get out of bed I was so depressed. Then, there were 4 deaths in my family within a 5 week period. After that, my brother almost died. Three more relatives and a friend of 25 years died of a brain tumor at the age of 49 before things finally calmed down. In the midst of all of this, I started hemorrhaging one night and nearly bled to death. When I did finally find Dr. S., I gave her 2 cards I had found. I had written notes in both of them telling her just how much she meant to me as a person and as a doctor. I regretted not telling her how I felt much sooner. I had always thanked her but I really poured my heart out in these cards. I told her I wouldn't have been able to live with myself if I hadn't gotten the chance to tell how I really felt. She seemed genuinely touched. I gave her those cards 6 months ago and she still has them on a shelf in her office. Now, the hard part. Since all of this happenned, I can't get her out of my mind. I know she was going through a divorce at the time she changed jobs but I've never questioned her about her private life. I think about her and fantasize about being with her. I know this is not possible. Our doctor-patient relationship has become much closer since we have reunited this time because she has a much lighter caseload now and has more time to spend with her patients. She is a beautiful person and a wonderful doctor but this obsession is driving me crazy. I can't stop thinking about her. I would greatly appreciate any suggestions anyone might have. THANK YOU!!!
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