Posted by ClearSkies on January 2, 2007, at 8:04:04
In reply to Re: My husband doesn't want me to take any medica » ClearSkies, posted by LJRen on January 1, 2007, at 22:47:15
> before you go off meds, do you remember how you were before you ever started taking meds?
>Oh, yes; it's quite vivid. 24/7 of inconsolable crying and panic attacks that prevented me from leaving the house. I'm high functioning now. I just don't know if I'm ready to admit to being good and broken and needing to remain on my meds. I would love to be able to say that I'm "over" my illness instead of having developed a chronic and altered condition.
> in dealing w/ the ups & downs of my depression and the numerous meds & their side-effects I know it can be trying to say the least. but I do know that insufficient working meds is still better than no meds at all. for me, it's the difference between living a few feet deep in the dark pit of despair and at the very bottom of it.
>Yes, that's true. I am very afraid of putting myself back at the beginning by tapering off my meds. But I also feel that I don't really know how I genuinely feel anymore. I think this is what my husband is concerned about; that my medications have changed my lifestyle. Taking pills twice a day to approximate a feeling of normality makes me feel rather pathetic.
> perhaps you can stress to your husband that his support is what you need more than anything when it comes to whatever decision you come up with.
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> take care,
> RenThanks, Ren. I think that if I need to, I'd be able to have my pdoc speak with him.
CS
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