Posted by wishingstar on August 3, 2006, at 21:25:57
I'm so proud of myself! It's rare that I have something really positive that I feel is worthy of posting, but I feel great about this. Mostly, anyway.
Tonight I ended a 2-year relationship with a boyfriend who has not been right for me since the very beginning. I had tried to leave several times but always felt manipulated to stay, even though we never lived together. I have been distancing myself over the past few months and it seemed to go easier tonight. We're officially seperated. I have a very hard time with the thought of being alone, even if I dont like/feel attracted to the person I'm with, so I feel like this was a big step for me.
A little part of me is still saying "oh no!".. and part of me is yelling at myself for not being clearer and more direct with him, even tonight.. but in the end, it doesnt matter. It worked out. I know he's really hurting, and I hate that I did that to him.. I really do. But I had to do what was RIGHT for ME. And I did it!
What a weird thing to be proud of, huh? :)
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