Posted by tepiaca on February 19, 2006, at 21:11:09
Guys Im really but really tired of my life. Believe me , this is not life , this is the worst
of the nigthmares I could ever had and the
problem is that Im awake.I am 25 now, all started when I was 16. I have
severe huge social phobia , depression and who
knows what else. I have been terrified in these
days because Im sure I could not make alone
in this world. My parents give me money yet but
they are getting older and someday they are not
gonna be with me anymore.
Believe meI canīt talk !!! how am I going to
work? . I have no motivation for living. Im
afraid of the future. I lost a year ago the
woman of my life and I did it because of this
disease. She get tired of me , of being so quite
of being so bad with her , I didnīt treat her
rigth , I was trying to solve this problem without paying attention to her. I wish I had health to marry her. Find another ? I canīt !!
Im not happy , I understand with this relation
that If I am not happy then how am I suppose to
make happy another personIf you look at me in the street you may think
oh he is normal , but you dont know the hell I
have inside. I open my mouth twice today, and
only say Yes or No. All day at bed watching TV
Dreaming with being normal , it hurts so much
this life. Is it worth to live like these all
my life? why to live??
can I be a father ?? what could I teach a son?
Does a woman deserve to be with me for the
rest of her life?
I dont have a reason to live. Im not exited
about life. Im still here only because of
my parents.
sorry to be so pesimistic, Im tired. Just
wanna share this with youTep
poster:tepiaca
thread:611222
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/relate/20051204/msgs/611222.html