Posted by rjlockhart on December 29, 2005, at 21:30:21 [reposted on January 1, 2006, at 17:52:15 | original URL]
Today was the most horrid day i have experinced.
I screamed, my mother was hardheaded to me, i went complete mania
I almost killed myself today. I wrote a list of things how to.
My mom said you are not thinking right, i said "not thinking right. DONT YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU DONE, WELL IM GOING MAKE SURE THAT YOU THAT YOU SEE WHAT YOU HAVE F*CKING DONE, CANT YOU SEE WHATS WRONG?"
I had a complete mania episode, i had feelings i cant explain how crazy you get, i dont want to explain. I will tell you that i just blew my top, my mom started verbaly insulting me, i went crazy, i got gasoline and almost poarded on pictures of me, and said you want to see what you done? well all these pictures are going to torched, she said ill call the police, i said ill set myself on fire, so pick up that phone and you son is dead.
I prayed, i calmed down.
I am bearly still here.
I dont know if anyone rerembers me.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:594055
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/relate/20051204/msgs/594055.html