Posted by rjlockhart on December 8, 2005, at 20:59:06 [reposted on December 8, 2005, at 21:19:02 | original URL]
Ok,
God i swear i wished i had a reset button i press and everything goes back to normal.
Anyways, ok, my mom is preventing me from getting psychiatric treatment, and is holding me back from collage classes. I am trying to take Accounting, she says "i know what you can handle, you thinking is disorted, rerember mom can think better " That is pure personality disorder you can spell. My mom has a history of many things, she doenst know how to handle situations unless she has absolute apporval.
She will do anything that if she finds out that i am going to psychiatric treatment with out her, she will call the doctors, go to court, which i may have to handle. She refuses to change medications.
With the sitaution i am in i am trying to be Proactive and take Accounting, Collage Algebra, English, Literature. I want to take these courses but she refuses, and with medication i going to the doctor to be prescribed 40mg of dexedrine in the morning, 20mg at night, (english and liturature). I am on 30mg. She says the doctor will only put you on 40mg, thats it.
Listen, these courses are going to be hard, she is passive to what i say, busts out in rages, I have to do something.
I have to now be my own parent, "mother can think clearer than you" that is something that kathy bates would say on the movie Misery (1990). That is pure poisen.
My mom does have a kind side to her, im not saying that she is bad, but she has distored thinking herself. My mom can be nice, wants to do things that are wild, joke about parties, crazy things... ROFL, tells me about she the time she took Quualude, dont ask.. ROFL but with making descions she turns personalites.
Being my own parent is now breaking away from her.
I need advice.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:587089
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