Posted by lynn971 on November 18, 2005, at 20:04:50 [reposted on November 19, 2005, at 3:25:25 | original URL]
My husband has been very ugly to me lately. He says that I need to stop leaving things hanging around. I try. I see about my two children, my little cousin who lost his mom, I teach, and I have fatique. I try. I get so tired that my bones hurt. I wake up well after the alarm clock rings in the morning. I am usually running late. Sometimes I take an outfit out and decide not to wear it, I leave it on the bed because by now I will be late.
He is just really ugly to me. I feel like driving off and never coming back home. If it were not for my children, I think I would. I would just ride and ride and ride, and not care what happens. Just ride. Flip everything. Flip this crazy world. Flip lexapro, prozac, and all the other things.I quit smoking a year ago. Hey what the hell, maybe I should smoke.
I am tire of trying. I am tired of living. I am tired of being tired. I am tired of the depression. Dont worry, I wont kill myself, I have kids to raise.
poster:lynn971
thread:580332
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