Posted by kerria on September 13, 2005, at 9:09:18
i hate myself- the way i am and there nothing- there's absolutely NOTHING i can do to change.tears. It's so frustrating, understatement- to think i'm a little kid when my H is home but to love him like an adult now that he's gone to work. and to be so hurt and angry with myself for being the way i am.
My T can't help - everything is wrong with my life all the time. i'm never the right one for the relationship. the wrong part always come to prevent me from ever having any good relationships IRL. my marriage is wrecked- it's been over in reality for a long time. my h doesn't divorce me because he doesn't want to spend the money. Everything is so hopeless about getting better. Everything is so wrong. i'm fractured in a bunch of different pieces and each one makes any relationships impossible and i can't do anything to make it better. Even my relationship with T is so wrecked and that was my only hope out of it. i hate myself so much.
tears,
c.
poster:kerria
thread:554599
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