Posted by Damos on July 17, 2005, at 17:50:11
In reply to Re: How many years is it going to take? » Damos, posted by AdaGrace on July 15, 2005, at 9:22:58
Yeah I know what you mean and what you're feeling. I've made a lot of mistakes and bad choices (one of which I'm currently trying to survive one day at a time).
I haven't had a physical relationship since Jesus played quarterback for Jerusalem or even just a special someone in a very, very long time. But in the last couple of years I have made maybe three friends that have shown me that things can be different and better. Friendships where it's not all one-way traffic; where I don't feel depleted and defeated by the interactions but good and even sometimes energized. They're enough to keep that little light flickering inside hoping that if I keep working on me then the things around me will change too and maybe I can work hard enough and be good enough that someday I'll create a friendship that'll grow into something more. I need to keep hoping.
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