Posted by Susan47 on April 29, 2005, at 22:23:19
My first husband, he was darkly handsome, and when he laughed and clapped his hands together in that grand gesture that I think only doctors have, I thought the world had lit up, it was so strange. He had a magnetism that you rarely see. And other times he was different, his colour changed, his skin actually looked different. And he'd be looking blankly, staring at something, with the corners of his mouth down, oh God I remember he looked at me with such love, at times, and he had the sweetest, prettiest smile you ever saw on a guy. Other times he was ugly as sin. I mean, really, and pictures show it. I'm the same way. Some people are beautiful all the time, others it really shows from inside. Sigh. They say clear skin is a signal of beauty, to the human eye. I have never nor will I ever be that, either or.
So .. but he was a psychopath.. that's what a psych said after two or three meetings with him. And I remember after our joint session, the ex- quit going, because he said the doctor wasn't on his side, he didn't feel supported or something. And I completely gave way, sure, that's fine. Whatever he wanted, it was always whatever he wanted. I don't even remember why we thought we wanted to save the relationship. Dumb. Dumb, dumb, dumb.
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