Posted by Cherilyn on January 2, 2005, at 21:48:22
Hi... I'm new. I originally began looking at the meds board (because I'm on everything known to man, apparently) but realized that no matter what I'm taking now, I need to deal with what's really going on.
Which is the recent dissolution of my relationship and my complete inability to let it go. I began an intense love affair with who I thought (and sometimes still do) was my soulmate. I had never felt so exactly just myself. You sort of just have to understand how that feels. It's like being perfect.
But I'm bipolar and my boyfriend is depressive and we let each other down. I met somebody else and broke up with my boyfriend and am now miserable. I honestly don't know how I feel about the new man because I'm too incredibly destroyed about the last one. I get hit by insane waves of hysterical crying and panic. I look to him for support and he can't give it. I'm making the breakup much worse on both of us and I can't help it.
I'm terrified and just can't deal. I know we weren't happy and maybe we never would be, but I just want everything back the way it was. How do I move forward? I can't even find the door to the right tunnel, let along see through it to the alleged light.
Anyone know what I'm talking about?
poster:Cherilyn
thread:437016
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/relate/20041223/msgs/437016.html