Posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:45:57
I could tell him anything, and did......I told him everything. He didn't, but funny I didn't notice did I. I was selfish, I was self centered.....I looked for replacements.....I felt insecure....I lashed out.....
I remember the time they found the tumors, and he was so concerned, said he prayed that day, and wasn't a praying man, but for me, he prayed. I felt loved.
I gave more than I took though, and I guess that was a good thing, but it doesn't feel that way right now.
I miss my best friend. I miss my lover. I miss my soul, my heart, my mind.
I'm lost in this world of emptyness. Filling the void is so very hard. Finding peace, I cannot do.
Look to yourself Ada, find happyness within yourself......But I don't know how.
Men don't like sad women. Men are affraid of pain. Men turn away from someone who needs too much, who crys too much, who feels to much. Funny.......I thought someone that didn't feel enough was a b*tch. I feel so much, and cannot give it away anymore.
I hurt like the breath has gone out of my lungs. I can't fill it up again.
What would hurt you more......me dying or her?
Can I fix that for you?
Dissapear Ada, dissapear, then I won't have to face the fact that I loved you and left you for another.......
Go away Ada, don't be seen Ada, don't tell me I hurt you Ada, I don't care anymore. She's better Ada, she's prettier, she's skinnier, she's better in bed Ada.........she's here, in my bed everynight......where the hell were you? Ohhhh Ada, did you believe me when I told you forever? LOL I didn't mean that, did you think I meant that? Geeze, I'm sorry, I thought you knew I meant......"just for now"
Get over it Ada, life goes on. Live and love and learn, that's my motto Ada. Your birthday? Yeah, I guess I forgot that Ada, sorry I was passionately making love to someone else.......
So sorry I ripped you apart Ada, never meant to hurt you..........hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
poster:AdaGrace
thread:428261
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