Posted by Racer on September 24, 2004, at 12:11:45
It's the same subject as the last post, my husband and my guilt.
We talked about it at our marriage counseling session today, and that left me feeling totally hopeless. No matter what I say, nothing changes -- except that it gets harder and harder to make the effort to say anything at all. Today the MC asked him what he needed from me, and he said, "Nothing. I don't need anything from her." He went on to talk about feeling pressured to do more and more and more, but not needing anything back.
Well, you know what? All that tells me, emotionally, is that I'm wrong -- which I always know I am -- that I really do have to do everything myself, that there really is no one I can ask for help, and that I'm not allowed to ask for help, anyway, because that's just asking too much.
And it doesn't seem worth opening my mouth to try to say anything at all.
So, since I'm obviously wrong to ask for help, why would I feel so overwhelmed?
Right now, I feel as if I'm trapped in a prison cell, and the walls are closing in on me.
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