Posted by Partlycloudy on July 4, 2014, at 21:48:58
In reply to Re: hearing a few common themes » Partlycloudy, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 18:49:44
> hang in there pc...
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> i know you are going through a hard time of things...
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> i... had a pretty traumatic experience at rehab, too, honestly. people trying to get reduced jail sentences, as you say... in my situation... people found a way to get stuff in and things ended up with a bunch of people (including myself) leaving to escape urine testing and holding up in a motel for a week or so...
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> so... not the most... uh... uplifting of experiences, for sure.
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> sorry i'm... not exactly combative. contrary. sorry i'm contrary sometimes. mosttimes. all the time. i... can't much help it.
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> but it is important to me that you know i respect you a great deal. you are like... family. no... better than family. take care.Thanks, Alex. Our experiences in rehab sound very similar, aside from the extraordinary cost.
I think I DO have to be more careful with what I share. That is it not the best outlet for me, ultimately. Especially when I am vulnerable. That's when I am likely to overlook the care in someone's reply, and only be able to see the contrariness. Dr. Bob may think this is something that can be accommodated or fixed somehow, but not necessarily. And Dinah is busy with other, frankly more mind boggling goings on here.Being as touchy as I am is my fault, and no one else's. When I am as raw as I am feeling, having to put on that pretend normal face IRL is struggle enough. That's why the support groups help so much. No masks. Leave them at the door.
I have to choose my words cautiously. This place is not what it used to be. I am learning.
I am happy to be in your family. I always wanted a cousin in NZ.
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