Posted by alexandra_k on December 7, 2013, at 3:08:40
In reply to Re: Grief, how long does it take?, posted by sigismund on December 7, 2013, at 0:48:16
hmm.
i hardly ever miss my dad. because i hardly ever saw him when he was alive. i hardly ever find myself thinking 'oh i should show dad that' or 'i should tell that' or... i hardly ever find myself thinking that i should get in touch with him. or that i wish he was here.
but then i don't get that much for absent friends. but i get it sometimes, i guess. and i'm making a more conscious effort these days to... well... post them cards is the thing i'm doing these days. saying something about how much they do mean to me as friends.
hardest thing for me about my father going was that... he knew he was going to die and... he didn't have anything to say to me. he didn't have anything special. he didn't want to tell me he was proud of me... he... well... he wanted me to be around him for a bit, i guess. but he didn't have anything much to say to me. and he didn't really want to hang out. that hurt. i thought... he would want to have a proper conversation. but nope.
i'm mostly at peace with it now. but that took a while.
what are you finding hard sleepy?
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