Posted by alexandra_k on November 25, 2013, at 15:25:55
well... after taking 6 sessions or whatever... then 3 weeks... the assessment is Still Not Done. what assessment? you know... the one that i never really wanted done. the one that i clearly expressed my thoughts on, each and every session. my thoughts on how these assessments are like interpreting tea leaves or reading horoscopes. how they open up new ways of being. how they close off others. how i... didn't believe in them. how they weren't valid for me, anyway, because i knew something about how most of them are scored (e.g., that 'i read the newspaper every day' is part of the liar scale). how so many of the questions were so transparent that she might as well save herself a lot of time by simply asking me: so, do you think you have some of the symptoms of OCD? Enough for a dx?
my saying this over and over...
is interpreted as evidence that i talk - in a way that is unresponsive to the opinions / thoughts / feelings / desires of others.
my repeatedly saying that i don't feel heard...
is interpreted as evidence of the same.
in our last session she said it would take her a couple weeks to write up the assessment. i...
felt sorry for her at that point. she was so totally focused on doing her assessment, doing her assessment, doing her assessment. actually, that is not fair. she was trying oh so very hard to remain focused on doing her assessment doing her assessment doing her assessment. often she got distracted. i mean... once or twice i actually caught her... almost kinda nearly... actually listening to me and responding to me as a person. omg. that set assessment progress back, like, *weeks*.
so i gave her a couple weeks to write up her assessment. so she can put it on my file. so she can feel like she didn't just waste the last 6 or so weeks of her time in seeing me.
only... it is for her. not for me. because: i told her already: i don't believe in her f*ck*ng assessments.
i know what it is going to say already: alex has x and we have no treatment for x. so i reccommend alex gets: nothing. because i don't know what alex needs.
(why oh why oh why won't alex shut up about how she doesn't feel heard?)
why don't people learn.. why aren't they taught.. that there is a difference between *helping* and *trying to help*? and where... can i go for protection from the latter?
JUST F*CK*NG TRANSFER ME ALREADY
poster:alexandra_k
thread:1054879
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