Posted by alexandra_k on July 5, 2013, at 19:40:52
In reply to Re: can't take it anymore » alexandra_k, posted by g_g_g_unit on July 5, 2013, at 12:40:10
the hardest thing about it is that it can become a vicious cycle.
i have sort of done the different sleep schedule thing. one that is partly overlapping. i stay awake until around 3 or 4am. i wake up around 11 or 12.
it is good for me when i'm productively using the time to work. when i'm using the time to play computer games or some other kinds of divergence... it isn't good for me.
so maybe it would depend on what you did with the quiet time that you had.
sometimes what we want is what is good for us, but sometimes, not so much.
i have a hard time waking up. if left to my own devices (especially when i'm playing computer games or other kinds of divergence) i end up sleeping 12 or 13 hour days and still feeling tired.
it feels to me like i need more sleep. like there isn't a point to getting up because when i'm up i'll be tired and cranky and unable to focus.
but the thing is that i'm not in the position to be making any decisions about that when my alarm goes off.
really... i function best on 7-8 hours sleep and NEEDING to get up to be someplace doing something. i resent it at the time - but really, i function my best in that setup.
with respect to your getting out...
what kind of person do you see yourself being? what ideal for yourself is it that you are working towards? are you an arty person - do you spend time in art galleries / museums? are you a creative person - do you spend time making or drawing?
i suspect that you don't want to be a person who sits round the house all day her whole body finely attuned to angry voices and anxious barking. put me in that environment and i'd know darned well how i'd end up feeling.
couple hours...
what do you have to do at home? sleep?
but baby steps.
at the end of your day you can look back on your day and say: what did i do with that day?
when you get out of the house you open up possibilities that good things happen. pleasant interactions with people, however fleeting.
if you stay home... things are predictable, yes?
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