Posted by baseball55 on November 21, 2012, at 19:30:19
I am really torn about this. It will be eight years at the end of January . For the last year, I have just been seeing him every other week for half an hour. It makes me so happy to see him. I always feel on air when I leave his office. But I'm actually quite well now. Between the lamictal (which I think has helped immeasurably with suicidal ideation) and DBT (which has also helped immeasurably with suicidal ideation), I have been pretty okay for almost a year. I get depressed sometimes still, but don't descend into suicidal depressions which I lose control of and which land me in the hospital.
I actually feel I am better now, permanently better. Everything in my life seems good -- my marriage, my daughter, my job, my friends.
He has always been about work, work, work. For the last year, he has felt that the work was with the DBT therapist, but was willing to keep seeing me because it upset me too much to stop. Now I don't feel so upset about the idea of not seeing him. I feel I can live with it.
So is it time to move on? Go to once a month for scrips and to check in? I'm very torn about this. He raised it the other day when I saw him and I said, let's wait til the new year and consider it then. My DBT therapist thinks I should keep seeing him as a kindness to myself. But I feel guilty about that. He had always said that he didn't want to see me just because I wanted to see him, if there was no work to be done.
Thinking about this tonight, because, when I saw him Monday, I thanked him for his kindness and help (in the spirit of the holiday) and wondered whether I should end it while filled with gratitude and not neediness.
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