Posted by SLS on November 7, 2012, at 12:59:53
In reply to Longing for death, posted by Lamdage22 on November 7, 2012, at 2:52:31
> I quite simply dont want to live.
What about the phrase:
"I quite simply don't want to live like this."
Would that be more accurate?
Take note that you did not say that you wanted to commit suicide.
Please don't confuse your current state of despair and hopelessness as being a decision to kill yourself. Ultimately, this is your decision to make, but it doesn't sound to me that you are ready to do that just yet. You must have some kind of hope, otherwise you would be gone by now. You obviously have too much fight left in you. Don't give up!
If you do give up and commit suicide, I would understand and not judge you. However, I think it would be a true tragedy if you were to die before your time. Perhaps your time will come. Perhaps trying to concentrate on the solution rather than the problem would help.
I have reached the point of wanting to kill myself several times. I am glad that I didn't. It looks as though I have found a treatment that will allow me to live without painj and frustration. I am feeling better and functioning for the first time in 22 years. One of the things that stopped me from executing autoeuthanasia (as I like to call it) was knowing that without mental illness, life was worth being alive for. I have memories of this being true, and I have preserved and clung to these memories for all of these years.
Was there ever a time for you when you felt that life was worth living? If not, what do you think prevented this from happening?
I know that none of my words are going to make things any easier for you right now, but perhaps they will inspire you to look for hope in a better future. For the most part, I have seen people come out of this thing you are going through. It is likely that this bad time for you will pass, even though not much will change in your medical condition. It is your outlook that most determines your degree of suicidality.
How do you see your future unfolding?
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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