Posted by g_g_g_unit on May 28, 2012, at 6:48:46
So, I've touched on my home situation here a little - i.e. passive-aggressive, domineering father, narcissistic mother - and have mostly given up on trying to reason with them. Which I'm 'okay with' for the time being. I basically just do what I'm told for the sake of keeping the peace, internalize my anger, and pray about the day I make it out of here. My CBT therapist has been relatively useless in terms of practical advice, though I have received some generous insight from my psychiatrist.
Anyway, one thing I haven't brought up with him - I work with my dad two days a week, which I hate enough as it is. But while we're driving around for several hours at a time(doing X), my dad will lean across the dash and search for locations etc. on the GPS WHILE WE'RE DRIVING .. regardless of whether we're on the highway, residential streets, etc. He also furtively checks his e-mail, texts, etc.
This is kind of where I draw the line, because he's endangering my life. Today we drew to a sudden halt behind a car that stopped unexpectedly while he was using the GPS. But I find myself just totally immobilized and too scared to speak out about this. It's like I just become frozen with fear at the thought of criticizing him.
I'm sure my CBT therapist would suggest I write a letter (yawn); I could tell my mom and she'd either dismissively suggest I deal with it myself, or go to him, and he'd probably be angry I went behind his back ..
I know this isn't very therapeutic, but as a one-off, I've thought I could just take some Klonopin (which eases my anxiety greatly) and then try talk to him, but I donno .. I wouldn't even know how to begin to phrase a criticism towards him. I'm probably making him out to be a total monster which he isn't - the authoritative construct I carry around is far worse than the real deal, and I'm sure he'd be OK with me saying "just let me do the GPS", but I just can't bring myself to even say it.
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