Posted by g_g_g_unit on March 25, 2012, at 20:47:46
In reply to Re: sick to death, posted by raisinb on March 25, 2012, at 19:09:20
Well, I had been refusing to eat because Parnate was suppressing my appetite. Of course, in a Jewish household this constitutes a major violation (I mean that semi-jokingly), so last night she came into my room and once again declared that she'd had enough of me and was going to have me committed.
I said she couldn't do that and that I was going to stay at some friends, so got up and started to pack. She called my father into the room who pinned me to the bed. I threw my laptop against the wall and told her, in all sincerity, that I hated her. She burst into tears and they both left. 30 mins later, while talking to someone on chat, I get a knock on my door and am greeted by four policemen and an ambulance driver. I am forced to consent to an interview and assessment by the driver. They discover a superficial cut on my arm (my mother had noticed a missing razor blade .. however, the only reason I'd been provoked to cut was because she'd tried to call emergency yesterday!) and I was cajoled into being taken to the local emergency room for a psych assessment.
I'm home now. I'm packing up and going to stay with friends for 3-4 days, but am utterly at pains about what my future holds. Your advice is sound raisinb, but that still doesn't 'cover' me on days like this weekend when I'm bed-ridden and need to be allowed to be so without having an emergency team called. My mom *needs* some kind of psych education on OCD and depression. She will always loudly declare that "my psychiatrist must be able to do something" and threaten that she's going to accompany me to see him or have me hospitalized or call her brother-in-law (a doctor). Instead of letting me just exist in a state of semi-functional depression (with occasional lapses into hopelessness and fatigue) and OCD, she seems to be operating under this sense of entitlement whereby I, her son, *must* be cured immediately.
Again, in front of the psych nurse, I brought up the fact that I feel she needs to develop a deeper understanding of OCD and again she openly dismissed me. Unfortunately, my condition is nowhere near the point where I can just grin-and-bear-it. It's severe, recalcitrant and since I have such a difficult time tolerating medication, I'm doing my best to engage in therapy, but that's impossible when living in fear.
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