Posted by alchemy on March 5, 2012, at 19:24:43
Even when I am not real depressed and wanting to die, I still don't want to live. I'm nearing 40, I've tried almost every drug. I've read all the self-help book, counseling, etc. I want to enjoy something. I hate the question about "what are your hobbies/ what do you like to do?" I will make myself do things. I'm sick of making myself do things. I have friends, I don't have kids, I get myself to make it through a full-time job.
One option is helping people. On the other hand, I have too much sympathy and it makes me feel like life sucks even more.
The other option is love. But that doesn't feel like it's enough in my life to outway everything else.
I am no longer religious. That is out of the question. No comments please on god.
And my hope is minimal. ECT, transcranial, meds mostly make me worse, and I don't know what else to try.
So if you have hated life for 30 years, and most likely will continue that way, and to have your body start to go downhill, what makes it worth it?
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