Posted by Dinah on February 26, 2012, at 9:33:19
In reply to Re: I think I'm getting depressed, posted by Raisinb on February 26, 2012, at 0:41:04
I suppose things are seldom caused by just one issue. I was already upset about fifty to the point where I'd said I was fifty for two or three years before I actually turned fifty so I could get used to the notion. It's not just the thought of getting older. There are also complicated notions about being an adult in the real world. I discovered last night that Barney in Barney Miller was younger than I am now during the show's run. And he was very definitely a grown up responsible person. I suppose there's always something that really drives the point home, about age and death. For me it was the thing about the rescue groups. It's not like I don't understand the reasoning. I do. And as my husband pointed out, rescue groups turn down all sorts of homes - sometimes for some odd reasons. But I've had dogs as a central part of my life for most of my life. I've often played the "someday I'd like a Newfie" game so often. Though I've gradually decided what breeds are really best for me. To suddenly think instead "I maybe have one puppy left in me." really drives home how limited life is. I already understood that, as two of our high school circle of ten or twelve died long ago. But this was a different sort of driving home.
My family stays pretty healthy into their seventies I suppose. Then all our bad habits catch up with us. My mother isn't doing too well, and that may also be playing a role, since I worry what will happen down the road with her.
Then summer is coming up. I hate hot. I'm just sick and tired of the cycles of life.
I'm just tired period.
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