Posted by pegasus on January 11, 2012, at 9:07:46
In reply to Happy is hard, posted by Daisym on January 11, 2012, at 0:44:04
Hey, I had a session like that yesterday. :( I agree that happy can be damn hard. I had a session the week before in which I'd felt empowered and proud of myself, and connected to my T. Then, bam, it leads directly to doubt, and confusion, and shame.
Then today I remembered an incident that I had completely forgotten (and don't love remembering), and I have no idea how it is related to what went on in session. But I know it is. But I don't want to work out how. I just want to protectively draw my blanket of confusion and sadness and self hate over my head, and hide.
I left my T a pretty nonsensical, message that had no particular content, other than to say that I wanted to call him. I think it's not wanting to unpack all of this, and yet wanting the support and connection. It's a wonder he doesn't think I'm completely crazy. Or maybe he does, and he doesn't mind.
- peg
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thread:1006954
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