Posted by pegasus on December 27, 2011, at 8:32:58
In reply to Re: update » pegasus, posted by Dinah on December 24, 2011, at 12:23:16
Yeah, good point. I will consider that.
(after some considering) I'm guessing that he was trying to reassure me that it is OK to feel sympathetic toward him. In the past we've talked about how I don't think anything I do or say really affects him. Because I'm really convinced that I don't matter, and that is HUGE in my transference with him. So, I think he was trying to show me that I matter, in that my feelings (in this case, sympathy) can influence him.
I remember now that he also asked whether I might have dissociated because I was so terrified of feeling caring thoughts about him. Because I'm so sure that he can't care about me (because of all of his other clients, and the whole therapy set up, etc.). If I don't think he can care about me, I feel like I *shouldn't* care about him. So, the idea is that when he told me this thing that elicited from me feelings of concern for him, that scared the wits out of me, and I dissociated.
I've been pondering whether I think that's what happened. I think it may be a piece of it, but not the whole story.
It's good to have given your concern some serious thought. Thanks for pointing that out.
- peg
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