Posted by Christ_empowered on November 29, 2011, at 18:13:58
I mean, just maybe? I've always felt the need to reject the diagnosis, made by one doc when I was 19 and another when I was 20, almost 21. I've felt that it couldn't possibly be true, that I was just immature and stupid and on too many Rx uppers.
My diagnosis is now Bipolar I w/Psychotic Features, unless its been changed to something more severe without my knowledge. I don't meet the criteria for narcissism anymore, that's for sure. I'm celibate, I don't exploit people, I don't crave fame or superiority or perfect love or high-status (or friends with high status). I just...exist. And I'm with vocational rehab, so soon I won't even be living off my (wonderful) parents anymore. In fact, I don't even get that weird, dysphoric ennui that I used to suffer from.
No drug abuse. No desire for benzodiazepines or stimulants, except when I'm hearing voices--then I'd kill for some Klonopin. I get along well with others, even mental health professionals (used to be a big problem...), but I don't think I'm particularly docile, although the Abilify and Lamictal have calmed down my psychosis a good bit.
So...was it a bad diagnosis, made by some homophobic, decidedly unprofessional doctors, or...was I narcissistic? And did my psychosis destroy my narcissism?
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