Posted by emmanuel98 on November 1, 2011, at 19:15:49
In reply to Re: Painful session tomorrow with my p-doc, posted by TherapyGirl on October 31, 2011, at 17:20:14
He didn't charge me for the session, since it was his mistake. In fact, a few months ago, I was depressed and sleeping all the time and overslept our appointment and he didn't charge me for that since I had never before (in 6-1/2 years) missed an appointment. I told him I was upset by his brush-off and he said, it wasn't you. I would have reacted that way to anybody. I was just in a totally frazzled and rotten mood. He said it was probably a good thing that this happened, since I have always idealized him and seen him as wonderful and perfect. Now I saw him in a lousy mood and saw that he was not so wonderful or empathic or kind or perfect.
But it upset me because I felt like he didn't care about me, like he was just -- what the f**k are you doing here? He said if he didn't like or care about me, he wouldnt see me. He is semi-retired, doesn't need the money or the grief and could easily end the relationship and send me to someone else if he wanted to. But he is happy to still see me, cares about me and likes meeting with me.
So I felt good, but sad at the same time. I need to get over my attachment to him. I really want to. But I don't quite know how.
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