Posted by Dinah on October 4, 2011, at 0:13:06
In reply to Re: I'm jealous » Dinah, posted by annierose on October 2, 2011, at 17:21:30
That *is* nice. It sounds as if you're in a good phase of therapy. I'm not sure if I've made my therapist laugh recently.
We've been through so much together that I think it's inevitable that the relationship is two sided. Not equal by any means, but two sided.
As with many things, I think I'm very divided on the issue. Part of me does trust that he cares. Not as much as a real parent would, but more than your typical 16 session therapy would allow. But there's also an insidious voice saying (among other things) that he doesn't care. That he cares as long as I pay. That he cares when he has nothing better to do. That he laughs at me. That I'm laughable. The problem is that the insidious voice isn't really *wrong*. It just may not be really right.
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