Posted by Willful on June 24, 2011, at 8:08:53
In reply to Re: Been a while..., posted by lucielu2 on June 23, 2011, at 20:32:39
Hi, Lucielu. I'm glad things are working so well for you. We should all be so lucky! (or achieve so much through hard work...)
I always liked your posts and have saved some of them to read because they summed up so much. I'm not really surprised that you've taken such great steps. Growth doesn't materialize and takes so much commitment-- having the grit and insight about how to hang in there and take the risks it requires to make changes..
For me it's a struggle, and one that I'm not terribly successful with. But I do think I'm at least moving, gradually, in the right direction. My T says I need to be careful with my strong tendency to make progress and immediately to backslide. But at least there is progress. I see him 3 times a week and have for years. I don't really feel alone with it-- because I am in a great relationship, which gets better over time-- so I always feel as if my companion is there with me. But I do often feel defeated, disappointed in myself, and then of course just repeat the pattern of screwing up and having to work my way out of it again. Sometimes it feels as if I"m abusing myself (or the people around me)- by having or giving them hope and then undercutting it-- but it;s better than before when I was in a many years depression without any hope at all.
I hope you're going to stay around here a bit. I mostly just read, and don't post very often, but if it were more active, I probably would also get into the swing of it. Every place has its era, perhaps. But psychobabble is (or was, I"m not sure which) a special place.
Willful
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