Posted by wittgensteinz on April 12, 2011, at 12:02:52
So, at yesterday's session my T mentions he's going away the week after next. Fine - I mean it's always a bit hard but it's also nice to imagine him having a nice time, relaxing and so on.
We've been having good weather so I say "I hope you get more of this good weather when you're on holiday" and he says "that shouldn't be a problem, I'm going to [fill in conflict-ridden middle eastern country near Israel currently in the news - with probably one of the most ruthless regimes on the planet]. It's a bit uncertain still given the uprisings there but unless the travel company cancels we're going - after all it's already booked".
And now I'm worrying. Any sign of weakness or danger sets me on edge. I worry a lot about him dying - when he goes away I worry especially - and now it will be all the worse. His usual walking holidays in Germany or Scotland or wherever don't carry huge risks but this just seems like stupidity to me. I wish he hadn't told me or just lied to me and I'm hoping he comes back again in one piece.
I want to beg him not to go.
Witti
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