Posted by Annabelle Smith on March 2, 2011, at 20:25:04
I feel absolute despair right now.
I feel like my session went very badly today. There was just no connection, and I felt misunderstood. I can't even remember what we talked about, for the most part.
Dear f*ck*ng God, I want out.
Now, more than ever, I feel like I have to get out. I feel so depressed tonight. It just started after my god awful session. I feel like my therapist is saying to me that I don't need therapy-- I don't think he is saying it, but sometimes that's what I feel.
I feel like I have no support. I try to tell him how i have made him into everything-- all of my energy goes towards that relation. I have made him into my spiritual guide, my life adviser, my mom, my brother, my healer, and God. He doesn't understand how intense this is for me. If this ends, i have literally no where else to turn. no family to help with this, as i have cut them totally off from me emotionally. nobody else.
I want to die. Dear God, please kill me tonight. I just want to sleep forever.
This is hell. I feel severed from my therapist. I don't know how to make it until the morning.
poster:Annabelle Smith
thread:980017
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