Posted by pegasus on March 2, 2011, at 14:46:19
In reply to what to do with scary dream about T, posted by pegasus on February 28, 2011, at 12:19:11
I shared it with him, although, I hemmed and hawed a bit first. He was proud of me for bringing it up, even though I obviously didn't want to in some ways. He said that the dream made sense, because if he was going to hurt me (which he's really committed to trying hard not to do), then it would be through our connection. We talked a while about how extreme the imagery was. How this risk feels like a life and death thing. He says that the way to deal with that extreme fear is to talk about it, so I just need to keep bringing it in.
I think he sees this as not so much a warning from my unconscious, as something else. Like, I *could* just disregard it. "Let it go." I'm not quite sure I get that part. I guess he's trying to encourage me to find a stance toward therapy that is not filled with so much fear.
I'm embarrassed because it feels like so much unnecessary drama. But he was very accepting, and glad to talk about it. And in his presence, it does feel rather ludicrous to imagine that he would ever have a gun at all, much less hold one to anyone's head. So, that was reassuring.
I'm tired of this whole topic. I want to tell my unconscious, "Enough already!" I want to open up my therapy to include more than my fear of connecting with people who are going to turn on me.
- P
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