Posted by mmealltalk on February 2, 2011, at 19:16:58
I usually only write or comment during the summer while my t is on break but right now i am losing my mind and though my t and psymd are available it doesnt seem to matter. Everything bothers me, its like i have no tolerance of dealing with the smallest deviation from the norm. I feel so depressed and hopeless and sick of life and i am getting lower and lower in a hole that i am aware is so close. Look at me the wrong way and i want to cry, thats how crazy this has become. There are real life issues like living with an 85yr old grandmother who is clearly deteriorating rapidly and has fallen (though not hurt herself) and been hospitalized twice in the last month. I also have a father who speaks to me so abusively i cant take it but due to financial issues i live in a home he owns and still have to follow his rules at 34yrs of age. Im on disability but since my family doesnt understand why i cant work they do not really grasp why i have so much difficulty in life. The bottom line is i am so miserable and while i know there isnt much that anyone here can do, i am losing my mind and very depressed so i decided to write.
Mel
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