Posted by Annabelle Smith on January 16, 2011, at 15:01:16
I just needed to write on here to say that I am having a really hard time. I get this feeling of being on the edge of a void or something. I feel like I am fighting for my life.
I just started what is going to be a really tough academic semester. I don't think I can handle it. I saw my therapist on Friday afternoon. My therapist mentioned the option of dropping the semester and taking time off-- but that would mess up a lot of things. Being here is going to mess up a lot of things too. I am trying to get help-- really, I am.
But there are so many endings on the horizon. Something feels really wrong-- I don't think I am thinking straight.
Time just goes on and on and on and on and on.
And I want it to stop for a minute.
I need a breather. I need a break. I am exhausted.I have been feeling somewhat not safe, but I am not sure. The feelings come and go. Sometimes I think I am fine; and other times I feel close to harm.
This is really hard-- and I can only see it getting worse over the next few months.
poster:Annabelle Smith
thread:976977
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