Posted by annierose on January 3, 2011, at 19:00:36
Background: I used to see my therapist 3x a week. Beginning in about October of '08, I dropped back to twice a week due to insurance and $$ issues. And every once in awhile, I would add a third session - but not on any sort of regular basis.
So in late November of 2010, I was going through a rough patch and added a third appointment. After the appointment, I told my t how helpful that appointment was - and asked to keep this third appointment "at least through December" (is what I recalled I said). My appointment was @ 2:50 but right before the Christmas break, she asked if I could come in @ 1:15 instead.
Today was our first session back. The session itself was going farily well but it was mostly a recap of events and not feelings. When time was up, I asked, "Just to clarify, what time do you have me down for tomorrow, 1:15 or 2:50?" She didn't think I was coming in and scheduled other clients in both time slots. I was hurt but left.
On the drive to work I couldn't help but feel, "What if I never asked and went to my 2:50 appointment time?" I'd be in the VERY small waiting room with another of her clients (it's a solo private practice) and then she would not have "chosen" me (as I wasn't on her schedule) ... oh my goodness. The thought of what "could have" happened is freaking me out. What if that little voice didn't pop into my head?
She sent me a text regretting not talking about the third appointment before Christmas break and offering me the 2:50 time slot next week. No thank you. I didn't want to continue 3x sessions - but did want the third appointment this week as we just came off a break.
I understand how this happened. But I still feel the hurt.
poster:annierose
thread:975736
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