Posted by violette on December 24, 2010, at 14:48:00
In reply to Bingeing, posted by Annabelle Smith on December 22, 2010, at 19:37:19
I agree that you are not alone, Annabelle.
I noticed in your other posts that you seem very harsh on yourself. There's a pattern....where you seem to feel badly about having the emotions you feel...I understand that it's already hard enough to have those feelings...but to feel bad about having them too? it can get torturous..
Telling my therapist about my feelings over and over-then seeing him accept them/me - no matter what they were about, or how intense they were - over and over - is what has helped me stop feeling critical of myself, calmed my superego (to put it in simplistic terms). once you get improvement in that area, you're closer to feeling content.
I know you had said you have trouble telling your therapist about many of your feelings, but when you are able to be more open with him, you will start to feel safe to open up more...which will allow him to accept more of you....and his acceptence of you and all your feelings will start to be internalized.
The act of continually being accepted, all feelings and thoughts, is part of the process...and if you trust the process, even if you don't totally trust your therapist yet, maybe you can start to see that there is light at the end. Better days are ahead, they really are.
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