Posted by violette on December 21, 2010, at 21:38:28
In reply to Great session w/ therapist..., posted by Christ_empowered on December 20, 2010, at 22:23:56
Hi Christ Empowered,
Your voices could be your harsh inner critic/superego - rather than psychosis...voices can also be renumerations - which tend to pop up when inner conflict is involved.
An example of inner conflict in this context could be, possibly: you are starting to feel -"hey i'm not such a bad guy after all"..starting to accept yourself...meanwhile, your sense of self, as taught by your parents directly or indirectly perhaps, is confused...which is why those voices start to appear - to remind you that "no, I'm not acceptable; i'm bad; after all, they said i was a narcissist"....etc. Accepting yourself might seem foreign to your mind, so it does what it does to protect your old sense of self. Does that make sense?
To me, it sounds like progress and i like that your therapist suggested working through them. I think that's great. Working through conflict (if that's what it is) gets rid of OCD type renumerations that can seem like voices.
This doesn't mean it would necessarily be worse if they are mild hallucinations. At the beginning of my therapy, I had visual ones several times, i had the voices too that occured with OCD anxiety. But it's been months now, and they totally disappeared on their own. I never took an antipsychotic in my life.
Hallucinations can arise as emotion surfaces in your consciousness. Your mind is used to disavowing them, and it sometimes can't cope. Slowly acknowleding the emotions with the safety of your therapist can prevent them, or at least curb the mild hallucinations whatever type they may be. In other words, working slowly through material with your therapist who will contain them for you. And then not overthinking (thus getting out and socializing).
Of course these are only my speculations..thought it might help ease your concerns. I'm glad you feel safe with your therapist and that he is nonjudgmental. Best wishes in your therapy.
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