Posted by Dinah on September 26, 2010, at 10:05:11
In reply to Re: I hate him, posted by emilyp on September 25, 2010, at 23:12:38
I know. But it would appear that I'm not ready to accept what that would mean. That he can't bring me any further.
Darned if I understand why, other than that maybe I find stability in the parental/child relationship we have. It's the relationship I have always felt comfortable in. Since Daddy died, he may be the only way I can be in that relationship.
He keeps giving me mixed signals on the emetophobia. I even asked him if he were emetophobic himself, and he said no. He seems comfortable enough speaking of it, too comfortable for my comfort sometimes. He had the idea that desensitization would involve actual vomiting in his office, but it doesn't. He was actually very anxious and excited about doing it at one point. But he admits that that desire might have had some white knight aspects to it. He's not really clear on why he's reluctant. Sometimes he doesn't seem reluctant at all. He's right in that he does procrastinate on everything, not just this. I hate to say it, but although he works long hours, I think in some ways he's a bit intellectually lazy in therapy. Or at least that's how he comes across. It might be just part of his phlegmatic personality, the personality that I find so helpful at other times.
The DBT he actually does want to do. We've long talked about it, and he's intrigued with the concepts. But when I brought the video in, I got the distinct impression that he was getting more out of it than I was. He wasn't expanding on the concepts in any way, or suggesting ways they might apply to me personally, or talking with me about ways I could use the skills. I'm happy to share with him and I'm sure he would find the knowledge beneficial, but it didn't seem fair that I should share with him at his hourly rate...
Still, I guess it would give us something to do, and I'll likely bring in the videos just to fill the time. I'm tired of chit chat, and I'm even more tired of him fighting sleep as we talk.
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