Posted by Dinah on June 13, 2010, at 13:02:23
Well, not so much interpretations. My brain is rarely subtle in the dreams it sends me. But I've had similar dreams for two nights in a row, and I can't figure out what message my brain is trying to send me as it relies to my own life.
I only remember the last part of the first dream. I was telling my therapist about something that was upsetting me and was talking and talking, when I realized that he had the flu. I don't think we were in session. We may have both been in a waiting room or some other public place somewhere. I felt really guilty for bothering him when he was sick.
The second dream went on forever, but what I remember is a bit incomplete. I called my therapist at what was normally considered a perfectly reasonable time. But it turns out that he and his wife were away in a different time zone. After he answered my question, he forgot to turn the phone off, and I could hear his wife complaining about people calling at 3 am where they were, and my therapist wearily replying something that wasn't particularly kind to her or to me. But of course, he didn't realize the phone was still on.
Meanwhile, another client of his had been listening, and this client was trying to convince me to take some move against my therapist. I'm unclear what move that was, exactly, other than I think he worked for a government agency. He (the client) showed me my client file that he had stolen from my therapist's office, and showed me the places where my therapist had written something negative about me. I told him I had no interest in doing anything to hurt my therapist, and that of course my therapist wrote things that were less than flattering in his notes from time to time. The guy kept bugging me, and I was secretly upset by what I'd read. So I called my therapist to tell him, but he'd blocked my calls. I guess because I had called him at 3 am wherever on earth he was, even though I had had no idea he wasn't in my time zone.
I woke up feeling frantic and without any way to get through to him.
To put in context of my life, I've been having some anxiety attacks lately. Not only because of the dog, but because my mother keeps doing things I've asked her not to do, and because it seems more and more likely that I'm going to be more responsible for her soon. And because of work, and because I've been spending too much money trying not to think about all these things. It all builds up. I had been up for an hour or so, getting jolts of adrenaline, before the second dream.
Any ideas what my brain is trying to say?
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