Posted by rnny on April 23, 2010, at 17:33:10
In reply to Stressed out of my mind, posted by TherapyGirl on April 22, 2010, at 19:33:39
It is going on 2 years since my old T retired and I can say that only now the "despair" of not having her in my life has lifted. I still miss her, but I am not despairing the fact. As for the anger, OMG! I can't believe you feel the same way I do about certain things. The level of anger gets to the point where I feel I am losing my mind. I worked alot with my old T about my "Irish temper" and we got to the point where I could identify what I was feeling besides the anger. Since I had so much anger, there was always plenty of new material to work with an I actually got very good at figuring out what was going on. But to feel intense anger and have to live with is is a holy nightmare. I have been angry about a couple of things lately. For example a neighbor. Completely enraged that the 'new tenant' is a loud person who has a girlfriend that is worse than he is. That, coupled with the fact that the rental office does not give a darn. Combined, those two things can put me into a walking rage. And no way to get rid of it, I swear. I wish I was an exercise person. I hated gym in high school but man, I wish I was one of the people I see running all the time. I use food as my outlet for everything. People can think I am so sweet because I have a superficial pleasant disposition. But sometimes the anger I am feeling inside is so intense and I really have to use what I learned from my old T to get at the root of it. I had a job for 5 years where I was in intense anger the entire time. The boss hated me, made it known not only to me but others and that kind of unprofesionalism on her part (letting others know she couldn't stand me) let others to want to pick on me so they could be in with the boss. I feel your pain and am so so sorry you have this inside you.
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