Posted by obsidian on April 21, 2010, at 22:59:48
In reply to Intelligence and bonding in childhood abuse cases, posted by BabyToes on April 21, 2010, at 14:23:34
I do relate to this in some ways. I experienced a lot of neglect, and I have managed to get by in a number of ways, just because I figured it out. I sometimes imagine I was raised by wolves.
and there was a lot of violence and a lot of really inappropriate behaviors, and I by no means functioned well, but I did manage somehow to keep it together to some degree.I'd wander around for miles when I was a kid. I was into art and other things. I learned how to be alone. I actually like being alone to some degree.
As far as the abuse, well that came into play a lot when the alcohol was involved. I have seen domestic violence that no child should see.but I have done ok in school (when I wanted to). I was good at learning(when I wanted to be).
some people think I'm smart, I just know I'm not stupid.If I weren't, I don't know what would have happened to me. Emotionally I was so screwed up. I still am to some degree. Which is why therapy is important. I can figure out a lot of stuff, but that's not what it's about for me. I need to really work on the way I relate to people, my freaking mood, my freaking anxiety. My goodness...it's just too much sometimes.
I bonded to my sister, and to a lesser extent my brother. She needed me too, and she is incredibly kind.
I've done a lot of things, but I feel stretched too thin, and not too stable. I think I'm going down, I'm going to get worse before I get better.
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