Posted by sassyfrancesca on April 7, 2010, at 10:55:23
For 7 years, after my t is done, he writes notes and I have always sat on the couch and waited for him, and then we walk out together. It was a routine. Now, all of a sudden he wants to talk about me leaving when we are done....He does this at the END, and then says "we will talk abut that next week." Thanks a lot...a week to feel sick about another change.
Initially, he mentioned last night that he might have asked me to leave at 10 (end time for our session) because if he hadn't had a car, his wife would have picked him up. Then....he was thinking out loud, and said "well, there is no reason you should have to leave, no reason to change, etc.....then the end thing about talking about it NEXT week.
It did not go well, as he said he would be quite some time, and I asked: Do you want me to leave? He said, "yes." I got up, he tried to help me on with my coat, and I said.....it is not necessary, he said "want to shake my hand? I said, "no" and walked out of the door. He knew how upset, angry and hurt I was. I have never done anything like that. It takes a TON to let someone see my pain.
Then there is the "hug" thing; been going back and forth on that; did it for 7 years and tries to NOT hug me now.
HE created this "monster" and I am the one who has to pay the price for his vacillating...back and forth, etc.
All and any comments will be valued. This will be so hard. I try to be independent and depend on myself and have been doing it for such a long time. At 63 (aackk), I shouldn't have to be dealing with this change stuff....I know....life is about change.
Shouldn't we all have the right to keep status quo....especially with our t's....It sounds as if he is feeling guilty.
Raw right now; don't know what will happen next.
xoxo to all.
poster:sassyfrancesca
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