Posted by workinprogress on March 27, 2010, at 1:54:43
In reply to Re: 'on the spectrum of borderline', posted by Dinah on March 26, 2010, at 8:24:52
Thanks Dinah... for the reassurance, perspective, and the link.
Here's where I'm at:
I think I've been looking all along to figure out "what is wrong with me". Weirdly- this makes me feel like- here's why I struggle, somehow legitimizing and freed from beating myself up.
And... It comes with realization of... Rather than what is wrong, what just "is me" and my work. Not an excuse, but an understanding and compassion. I'm kind of really proud of myself. For all my hard work and growth and willingness to show up- in the face of my struggle- which is real in a way I haven't seen before. It allows me to give myself credit and understand why it has been hard/isn't easy.
Self awareness is hard (as my T would say) sometimes. But, it is also very very helpful. And Dinah, I think I've been able to do what you said- take what's useful and scrap the rest. Outside of the "borderlines are impossible, difficult, destructive, etc"- I find it a helpful lens to view my struggle and understand my pain. As my T said, it's a spectrum and I probably fall on the high functioning end, but understanding it allows me understanding/compassion for myself and empathy for others. We are all a product of the mix of wiring/environment- we all have our struggles... this one is mine.
a Work in Progress....
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