Posted by Dinah on February 27, 2010, at 16:23:45
In reply to Re: Myers Briggs type, posted by mystickangaroo on February 27, 2010, at 15:27:04
Well, at the moment I'm feeling a bit mistrustful, so *right now* I'd say my understanding of him.
I feel pretty angry with him for going to a conference next week and not telling me till Tuesday. More angry than I ought to be, since I've been having trouble thinking of things to talk about lately, and I've been thinking of canceling and using the time to get more work done. I tried to figure it out with him. He thinks I'm angry because he told me so late. I'm not sure that's it, because I've grown to accept that that is part of who he is. I thought I'd figured it out yesterday, in that this is another of those conferences that won't make him a better therapist for me, it's about some other aspect of his practice that he really enjoys so I figured maybe I'm feeling some sibling rivalry. He's going away so that he can take better care of his other clients.
But today I'm putting together some other things, and realizing that he's under a bit of stress right now and he has a tendency to enjoy running away when he's stressed. So I'm thinking I'm picking up on the fact that he's not just going to a conference, that he's wanting to get away, and that's why he suddenly decided to go to this at the last minute. And being the self centered person I am, I'm subconsciously feeling like he's trying to get away from me. When that's not really it at all, even if he is trying to get away.
And... well, he made a comment about money. When I was trying to figure out why I was actually *angry*, which really didn't seem appropriate, I wondered aloud if I was afraid that I know so little about what goes on with him in the other many hours of his life that if he suddenly tells me he'll be away the next week he could just as easily tell me he'll be retiring or something. He laughed that he didn't think that was all that likely, and I smiled and said I knew that. He said he liked spending money too much, and I smiled and said I knew that. He said he liked spending my money too much to do that. I didn't smile at that. It was carrying a joke a bit too far.
So I'm wondering again if you can trust a therapist. Because you never really know who they are, do you? People's long term therapists end up acting in ways they never thought possible. It's all too easy to hide in fifty minute increments.
So him. I want to understand him.
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