Posted by emmanuel98 on November 27, 2009, at 21:21:13
I just met today with my T (also my p-doc) and we set a date to end. I have been seeing him for nearly five years and have gotten so much better, have gotten through a terrible period of severe depression, overwhelming transference emotions, talked through all kinds of shame and self-hatred from having had a f***ed up childhood and adolescence.
I love this man so much. He has been like a surrogate parent to me. But I know I'm better and don't have much to say in sessions anymore. I don't want to linger on and get bored or frustrated. I want to have a clean break and say a meaningful goodbye.
But this is so painful. We had cut our sessions to every other week and I asked to go back to once a week but set a date to end. This is going to be painful however I do it, so I may as well bit the bullet and say goodbye.
I'd give anything for advice about how to live with this. I have never loved another human being as much as I love him, except for my husband and daughter. I completely idealize him. How do you say goodbye to someone who has been this rock for you? I'm crying and crying about this.
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